January 31, 2015

Closed doors?

Daily life. So much to learn!
As you can read in the last posts here, those time I'm thinking a lot about peace. And how to get there.
How I overthink it on a larger scale I see it/ learn in my day to day life.
Working in an organization like Knowmads for example things like this come on our path:
what to do when we get an offer to do business with for example Shell, or another company which we'all see as 'bad'?
Some say: 'defenitely a no. Closed doors.'
Others, including me, see it different.
We are all humans after all. Creating all together 'the system'. So. A yes: 'great challenge. Great chance to go into dialogue. Let's see if that is possible!' 
On bigger scale I'm thinking the same:
the government. All bad? 
Or would there be a way to listen to eachother, and..wo knows.. change something
Closed doors. I think it's never a right move. Because we're in this together, aren't we? 
The whole 100%.

January 30, 2015

Us

We know the bankers go with our money and become the rich people on top.
Is it on them, or is it us, who fool us self.
Not a bit, but so incredible much!
Instead of just shouting and screaming 'it is them!' we'd better get up and start doing things radically different.
Or are we depended? 
If we are so, we should shut our mouth.
Or, is it just me who see a bit of hypocricy?

I see the hypocricy in myself.
There is so much to work on, before I can truly say: 'it's them!'
Because I have a choice.
And there are so much better things to choose and do.
How often I choose for not organic stuff because I'm lazy? And what about my bank? I not even dare here to say which one I still use (after many 'tomorrow I will switch to another!')
Shame on me. And not that little.

I see I am responsible and don't do as much I can. I am part of the sickness, the state the world is in..
Let me (and hopefully more and more   
others with me) get well soon.. At least much better..

It's us! 


January 24, 2015

Piece of peace

Years ago I was already chocked by words like this:
'The second world war? Titia, it wasn't that big. Not that many deads as they told you. The holocaust wasn't that terrible. Hitler was not that bad. The books and pictures don't tell you the truth.'

This is what a lot of children (in schools) are being told in arabic countries, and for example east- africa.
Another thing what really shocked me:
"Most important for me in life: on #1= "my country", on #2="my woman" (me) and on  #3= "my children"

Again I'm chocked by the same words when I read 'conspiracy theory' based articles.

Yes. Politics is a crazy game.
But then, again, saying the biggest wrong-doers are *they*?
The core is the money (what rules the world), what makes the main 'evils' (as always) Jews, and especially the zionists?
The holocaust a 'hoax'?

"The holocaust wasn't that bad. What about the wars right now, like for example Syria? You see, all the millions of deads? Where no one seems to care about..You know it's caused by them, like all wars are!'' 
What?!
All wars are terrible.
How to compare them.
There is violence.
Why learning children 'the wars VS starts, and they and Israel are 'the devil', are bad.
We may defend ourselves, and kill them'.
Why not 'war, violence in general is bad'?
Why we keep on talking about different countries? What differs us in the core?

I cannot get this.
How can you talk about (world)peace while having the most narrow, rasist views?
Not that I have any trust in politics. Not that I don't know nothing about the Israel-Palestinian conflict and the violence of zionism.
But in the core: violence starts already by having a piece of land, a nation or whatever (even it would be the world) on nr. one. It's hypocrite. We against the rest. We as a country, we as a religion, we as..
To stand for. To fight for.
Violence is something very subtle.
And its seen everywhere.
I cannot grab that it's just *them*. The one percent.

How can you talk about peace while pointing and blaming?

It's the same in daily life.
You cannot have a good time by doing so.
How to have peace then? If there is no peace in yourself, just tons of anger?

There is nothing to stand for than your own inner peace.
No?
Is that too less to stand for?
That doesn't feed the hungry people, and doesn't stop poverty?
*It* (peace) contains all the good (freedom, love, etc.)

In the end it does. It is the factor what makes an end to for example poverty. Because your own peace means indepency what does you make more healthy choises and creating different ways. The point to move from to bring change, wherever.
But it takes the most.
It's the most difficult.
It's easier to stand for your conclusions of course. 'Against *them*'.
Being angry.
Of course we have to see facts.
But it's important to give them the right
 place, and answer them with something totally different. They are not solvable without a radical diffrent approax.
And what I read in so called conspiracy theories, the whole we versus them, it's full with anger and hate. Same 'level'. Same game.

Peace. Nobody can give it but yourself.
And if world is a reflection of ourselves, then how important is it?

I cannot see it intertwining. Anger and peace.
The anger has to do with identifying with victims in for example Palestinian and Syrian children what makes it seem very noble, but no.
It means you forget yourself (what is more easier, I know!)
Seeing your self as not that important.
But your self, in peace (in your core), is THE main piece of the worldpeace.
As important as every single piece!

Important and needed.
Needed.
For everyone and all around you.
Small scale, big scale.
Now and every single moment.

What a work to do all together!
It's so easy to see the solution 'out there', right?
'It's not me, it's not me! It's them!' 
Or.. 'hey..if the world is us, what about violence in myself, let's work on that?'
And (automaticly) share this in everything you're doing? 




The world. Change.

More and more it's becoming clear for me that the world is us.
The reflection of our inner.
The state.

This in mind, how can we ever really change the world-situation by anything else than 'just' the main focus on our selves?
It isn't that egocentric.
The core is the inner. Not the outer.
All protests and reformations change nothing.
Yes. Things will change. The same will go on and then slighly different. A twist.
Thats not really change when it doesn't come from a change within.

So do we have to focus on all the governments? How terrible bad *they* do?
On all the bad things we see in the outer world and change that? Reform that, curve that?
Or do we all have an enormous 'job' to do: to bring change in ourselves, so a change from within can emerge (wherever we are; in whatever surrounding, workspace, etc.)

With the popular 'conspiracy-theory'-thinking, the 'we-against-them' in mind, does it make sense that we also here focus on the outer in society? On all what goes wrong? On all what those terrible bad guys are doing? All their lies?  How 'devil' (in parentheses!!) they are?
It's so easy.... (and seriously I have to think on nursery school behavior. 'Look, teacher, what they are doing!!')

The 'conspiracy-way- of- thinking' goes in the core about good & bad. The war between. A scene, a world game, between two powers.
This is in no way comparable with 'non-dualistic-way-of-thinking'.
Because what is bad? Does evil exist?
Look in yourself. Your 'bad' thoughts. Do you have to give them a stage and put them in the spotlights (inwardly), so they dissapear because you 'see' them as they are, or..just 'fight' them? 'Saying' they should not be there?
Me I think the first way works.
They'll shrive and go by your own inner light.
So we can see it also in the world.
Accepting (and doing things differently/ changing ourselves) instead of 'fighting' (and in my eyes this is what 'conspiracy theorists' are doing).
In the core for me it doesn't match with my worldview (and thus being). That's why I feel it in my toes and water (this is how we say in in dutch).

Far more difficult than to see the bad-doers is to see yourself. Day by day. Moment by moment. Herefor you don't need necessairily any coaches or self-help books. Even not necessairily yoga-maths.  'Just' your own intelligence (where we'all born with), your own 'power' (=integrity), intention, senses, and a dose of courage.

How things will change then? Not by shouting.
By doing fromout within..

And how you do that, the doing? There is no how. Who do you think can teach you that than yourself? It just goes naturally..



Worldpeace?

Considering worldpeace:

everytime I think or speak bad about a person, I fail
everytime I make a religion, a country or an opinion* an important factor in how I see a person, I fail
everytime I don't see a person as wholly, I fail

I can shout out how worldpeace is needed, but as long I cannot see clear myself, I fail
Because for worldpeace all of us have to see clear. Or?

Not that 'failing' is 'wrong', but I think it's really important to see your own part in the whole world- situation. It isn't just the worldleaders, or better said the people with power in the back of them.
It's you and me.
Worldpeace starts closeby. In yourself. Nowhere else.
And it's hard work! Moment by moment! It's never 'I saw it, so I'm done.'


*whatever opinion.
So we have to embrace and go with the big destroyers?
No. We can think: 'we do it different'.
Or better: we can jut do it differently.
By shouting out how bad and disgusting *they* are, you don't share a good energy. What means you don't foster worldpeace at all.



January 20, 2015

Racism

There is so much hidden racism.
I was totally surprised that there for example also so much racism exist in Africa.
It looks like every country, every tribe feels superior.
"We are less dark than them"
"They are less dark, so not the real Africans"
"We have the best tradition", etc.
And so it excist everywhere.
It has a lot to do with tradition.
And proudness.
Proudness of roots.
Feeling yourself deeply part of a tribe, or folk, or country.. (yes, I know, it feels safe to have a home-base)

I'm totally done with it.
Totally.

You are you.
Part of the whole. Like everyone.

Not more.
Not less.

By saying, "I am a... (fill in your country)", what are you saying?
Without words: your saying "we are different", "there is a barrier, and always will be"
Hooray for nationalism, in all (however small) forms:(

I am happy myself that I'm born in the Netherlands.
A country I don't love.
But a place in the world with lots of freedom and space for things I do love.


Core

I wonder..

Somebody likes to watch tv for hours and hours a day, spending money on luxery tings, etc. The prototype 'consumer'.

Then.. the tv is the problem? The capitalists who make all the luxery stuff?

Or the big hole of not-having-enough in the person it self?

Where to start change? In blaming the big capitalists with power, or... maybe in your own relationships? Showing people who love to consume that there is more (just inside them)?
It's harder work. To blame is more easier. To show another way of relating, living and working..yes.. it's slow. Changes are not always directly visible.
But personally I think that is the only way.

Showing off mean you take your own complete responsibility.
That you say: "it's me."
"In me also there is a lot of hypocricy. Let me work on that. Moment by moment. Because that is what the world needs."

Radical honesty to the core.





January 19, 2015

Intelligence

While overthinking my last post during this day, I found out I really want to share some more about 'intelligence' .
For me intelligence is the 'living intelligence'.
It's the order in nature, the wholeness in everything what excist. The thing we cannot understand.
The thing nobody can explain.

If we have an Orwelian kind of world in mind and we are scared for a new world order what will totally ruin life on earth, what.. does this anxiety say about this Intelligence?
That people have everything in their hands?
That it's stronger than the Intelligence?
You can go with Orwell and see a living hell as possible future (in case we do not change). This thought/ conclusion will influence everything you do.

I go with Life. 
With all it's greatness. With all it's changes (moment by moment, small things which influences everything ~the butterfly effect). No black/white. No straight lines. No conclusions. Just an wide ocean of openess.
It will also influence me in everything I do.
It also means that I don't know about a future.
And I am fine with it.
To live is not search hope/trust in anything (outside).
Life IS hope/trust.
Trust and anxiety don't go together..




January 18, 2015

Learning/ Openess

Another little piece on 'learning'.

'Learning' is for me the same as 'living'.
How can you stop to (un)learn?
How can you ever say "I know it. I'm there."?

This time I hear a lot of talking in this kind of way:
"can't you see how the system is fooling us? Manipulating us? Brainwashing us?"
They go on and on.
Proof after proof. Blaim after blaim.

In my eyes you can stop pointing after a while.
When you know you can't build on politicians, you can focus on yourself. And other ways. Doing things differently.
Unlearn. Because also you are conditioned by the system in which we grew up.
And about the manipulating and the brainwashing part: I would rather point to the fact that each of us has it in their own hands.
That it's on us to let our selves being lied to. 
It's on the each of us how we honour life.
What we do with it. Moment by moment. Constantly (even it's on the surface) shouting and blaming the people with power? (It seems for me not that intelligent, and a waste of energy)
Or using our energy to teach and show eachother what could work better, peer to peer, horizontally?

If you build on any authority you are a manipulator yourself.
And what is authorotity?
Not only the state, the politics.
No. It's also having a belief (yes.., any, not only in the 'religious' sense).
It's also treating words and mental images as facts.
It's also creating an image about one's self or another.
It's also the authority of parents, of teachers, of guru's, and all those who "know".

The moment you follow somebody you are making yourself an idiot (dull) and the one you follow also an idiot. Because you both stopped learning.
So, I wonder: are we, in our day to day lives, using our minds to their highest capacity, or are we just slowing down? How many conclusions we have, although they look very noble, idealistic and right?

When we want to create a just and intelligent society, I think we also have to rethink the thing 'manipulation' and 'brainwashing'.
It's us.
Not them.

There is nothing to brainwash if we live more fully.
And act more fully.
If we stop following and copying any one, or anything.
Stop making conclusions, how small they are.
And start to invite people working differently.
Any conclusion is a closed door to this.

For me you can only learn in openess..

Open like the child'eyes.

January 16, 2015

My view. My world.

'Seeing' is something very integral.
What you see hasn't only to do with your eyes.
Everything of your body is included.
How utterly wonder-ful the body is. All cells working together.
Nerves, brain, heart,..all and everything one.

A worldview is also totally personal.
I don't understand that people can take simply other peoples views. 

This time I read now and then something of well-known people in the field of -what is called- conspiracy theories.
I hear a lot of (terrible) facts (which are good to know indeed), but next to that also also a lot of totally personal views, shared and seen as 'thruth'.
By others taken as 'the truth' too. Because the fact this person (f.e. David Icke) shares a lot of worthful news, all he says seems to be very interesting, trustful and worth to be build on. I see some people really start to believe all what is shared. Like he would be a prophet.
Scary.

I don't get that. While talking about sheeple and 'awoken' people, this seemly 'awoken' people just copy/paste a worldview from someone else. And easily copy/paste (and print) a sense of fear (for a new world order/ Orwelian world) in their cells. And this fear influences everything in the bodies (very subtle).
Their world seem to become more dark-coloured. What they also spread and attrack (without knowing). 

What if you compare the world with the following:
You're a 5 years old kid (me myself I go some years back in time)
You have a good childhood.
Everything is peaceful.
On a beautiful summer afternoon you're playing in the sand.
With your classmates.
You really enjoy the playing. And the surrounding. Just everything.
But then..
Two of your mates become very anoing.
Really disturbing.
They destroy all the beautiful sandcastles.
They become jealous, greedy and agressive.
They distract themelves from the group.

What to do?

What you do then as a kid?

You still see the world around as a paradise.
Because you are peace. You stay in peace.

You saw those two kids didn't want to speak.
Because they seemed to enjoy their destructive game.
Then you, all together, went somewhere else. Leaving the two behind.
And you held the good mood.
Playing. Loving 'what is'.

It helped.
The two didn't got any attention.
So it didn't work for them.

What if we see the two kids as 'the 1%'? The people with bad intention, maybe even wanting to have all control.
What if we really see them as kids who are playing another game?
In real life far more serious. Terrible. Horrible. Terryifying. I agree. But still..

What if we just say to eachother: 'let them'.
Thinking: 'our world (= our worldview) is beautiful, and we don't let them change that.
It cannot be changed (or destroyed) even because it is something internal (peace).'Truth (inner peace) can never wither.
To be afraid of 'evil' and anxity about a new 'world order' rejects this. The two  cannot be combined. 
Where there is fear (and all of the ones who talk about a new order seem to have it strongly) there is no love.

The two (or 1%) have destructive plans.
But what if we state 'innerpeace' high above everything else and as not-being-able-to-destroid-by-anyone?
What if we play by our own rules and just 'let them'?
No attention.
Just (and that takes constantly personal work by each one of us) staying in peace.
Right actions (co-creating the other game) would come out of that.

As I had when I was the little kid in the playyard, still this is my worldview.
I see the world as beautiful.
Nothing scares me.
I see peace as the highest.

Playing with and in a high frequency.

Yes. The world can be destroyed.
Who knows.
Then the two childs 'won'.
But I don't thinks so.
Life is SO enormously intelligent (beyond our knowing).
And the inner is stronger than the outer.

The inner, the Lively thing inside us all, I think will remain.
How?
I don't know.
And not have to know.

Trying to find out how Life works? Looking for all the 'sacred' sectrets of the Universe?
Why?

Trying to stop negativity (of the two)? How?
Attention makes it more interesting for them.

Play on.
In a natural 'state'.
Create.
Give.
Peace.
Be there for the ones who are hurt (by the two).
And let them play with you.
Always thinking and acting inclusive.

A childish, naive worldview?
Maybe...

But -at least- it's mine..!





Here I will store some links.
The first one: a reaction on the film "Thrive''.
After watching it, some years ago,  my first 'guts-feeling' was also :'no'. There are some facts in it we should know indeed, and some beautiful things, but the underlying thing...nó! 
I agree more with the author of this review.

Similar is my view on the Venus project. 
Links will follow...

Can we externalize? 
Like what I said: in my eyes no.
It is us. You. Me.
Not te 'bad man' (read the I% or the 2 classmates)
That's why all the energy of all cons. theories lead nowhere (in my eyes) and are waste. Some facts, yes, needed. But the rest... What is the reason? Also creating fear? 



December 7, 2014

Simplicity

Simplicity means for me also the following:

coming to a point that you know for yourself the answer.
That the answer is always love.
To whatever question.
To big life questions like why the earth is in this miserable state or why there is so much greed in the world, to small questions in daily life.

When you once dived deep in a such a question, a question of  'why-the-hell do people such things?' and you came to an answer, this answer will stay.

An insight stays.
Forever.
Than you know. What makes that you don't have to make your braincells comletely tired by every chocking fact of un-humanity.
Or by all the small daily issues.

Not that it doesn't mind you.
You just know what to do.. or let.

It gives a rest.

Action fromout a rest is, as I see it, more fruitful than from anger/ frustration. It also gives you more good energy. The energy what's needed for changing things..







November 23, 2014

To the sensitive ones

'Do not be ashamed of your sensitivity!
It has brought you many riches.

You see what others cannot see,
Feel what others are ashamed to feel.

You are more open, less numb.
You find it harder to turn a blind eye.

You have not closed your heart,
in spite of everything.

You are able to hold 
the most intense highs
and the darkest lows 
in your loving embrace.

(You know that neither define you.
Everything passes through.
You are a cosmic vessel.)

Celebrate your sensitivity!
It has kept you flexible and open.

You have remained close to wonder. 
And awareness burns brightly in you.

Don't compare yourself with others.
Don't expect them to understand.

But teach them:
It’s okay to feel, deeply.
It’s okay to not know. 
It’s okay to play 
on the raw edge of life.

Life may seem ‘harder’ for you at times,
And often you are close to overwhelm.

But it’s harder still 
to repress your overwhelming gifts.

Sensitive ones, 
Bring some gentleness into this weary world!

Shine on with courageous sensitivity!

You are the light bearers!'

- Jeff Foster

October 31, 2014

Namaste;)




October 23, 2014

Dying

Attachment and pain are related. I can see that.
You experience something beautiful, loose it (or be afraid to loose it) and then there is pain. 'Cause you helt on to the experience it gave you.
So, 'be not attached', like you often hear or read.
Simple.
Ansd it seems right.

But.
Imagine. 
You're a mother or father of two children. And the SS decides you to choose who of them has to go first into the gas chambers (like in the movie 'Sophies' choice')
Imagine.
Than you inwardly die.
Die.
Die.
Die.

Imagine. You see  t h e  love of your life be in another intimate relationship.
Without knowing, so you find out he/ she hided something (what's the hardest fact, because you were sure you both told eachother all important things.You were sure about that because that's what friends do, so at least lovers, so for sure when you're in a great relationship)
I can imagine.
You would die.
Die.
Die.
Die.

Does this pain come from attachment?
I'm not sure.
I also see that it is a reaction on something so totally unnatural.
So unbearable to accept.
In this situation every cell shouts out: 'no!!'
And it feels that your life flees out.
Out of every cell.
Knocked down.
No.No. Far more than knocked down. Stabbed with a knife. A knife as sharp as can be. In your most 'you'. 
Stabbed, stabbed and stabbed.
Right into your heart, deep inside your true being (trust, freedom, love, your 'natural state'). 
Mistreated in such an unhuman way...

You die.
Although you had a strong knowing/ believe that 'Life is good'.
Because you shared love and knew how naturally it felt, and that it felt it was mentioned to be (always), like a mother/ father and a child, where this connection naturally excist. 

Mother, you shouldn't be naturally attach to your children?
(Wo)man you shouldn't naturally attach to the soul you deeply feel connected with like it was a part of you?
You should not be attached to the fact 'Life (love) is always right?'

Are you always possible to be in control of attachment?
Do you always have the choice to not being hurt, to do not let emotions take over you? 
To be balanced in every situation?
To take everything 'as it is'?
Not any natural attachment at all?

There is pain and there is pain. We cannot deny it. There simply is, I think it's part of being human.
What to do with it?
I guess nothing more than accept it's there and be kind to yourself...and, like always 
just true to yourself (feelings included).
Nobody to heal it than yourself,'cause only you know how deep you're wounded.

All best with it! 'Cause I know we'all deeply suffer sometimes.
We'all can come through, even it can be a long way, as long there is (self)love/ (self)care..
A whole lot of care..
A whole, whole, whole....

Good Food

Good food for thought:

Conflict between the opposites - whether it is the left or the right, between capital and labour, between God and Devil, is non-existent: because, there is only one thing, 'what is': and any movement away from 'what is' is stupidity. Therefore, the conflict has no significance. ~ J.Krishnamurti

Good to start my day with.
'What is', nothing more, nothing less..
Delicious food for my 'research' in 'change making'/ activism/ creating a better world. Often a conflict lies beneath action, and is the ground where to build on. 
Mmm..., interesting!

Wheel of cocreation

Barbara Marx Hubbard on the wheel of cocreation.

October 22, 2014

Interplay

I
'Intelligence' we often relate only with 'mind'.
Me, I do not.
Also we hear sometimes: ' The intelligence of the heart. Wisdom of the heart.'
So, something devided. Two views.

Me, myself, I think 'intelligence' is when you use your whole body wisely. Using the brain to give things it's right place, and transform everything by using the heart.
Using everything.
That's for me 'intelligence'.

The mind as a tool. Serving your centre. As the heart is defenetely our centre. The first part of the body what evolved after conception. 

Intelligence is 'wholeness', in my eyes.
Everything included, everything it's place.    
Nothing 'thrown away'. Not mind. Not heart.
Seeing them both as what they are, interplaying together.
Great tunes! Fat beat;)


October 19, 2014

Property

Ceinturies ago we led the landowners, the elite, own the land.
After it it became the governments'/the big companies', the states'...
Roughly said.

As we believed in hierarchy (for example the churches, the priests above us) we excepted the land was theirs. It was clear. And still it looks we just accept.

A handful of people own a country, and rent it out (very roughly said, again)
We are able to live on it, as long we pay.

So painfull.
Because none of us own the land.
How do we dare to think so?
What a pride! 

We may live on it, we may care for it. What a gift! 
Like children. Not yours. But you may care.

When all this greed started?
And how it's possible we all play in this same game for centuries and centuries?
How we' all together, like silly sheep, let the others decide what to do?
Monsanto and it's destroyment what goes so unbelieveble far is one of the million examples..
....

Personally I don't have much with property.
What I 'own'? And don't wanna loose?
Life/ Love...

I know I'm fortunately not the only one who thinks like this.
And I'm very curious where this "new thinking" will lead to.
Not a new - isme.
As we see all the 'isme-'s 'failed.
A growth in 'thriving communities'?
Local, sharing, collaborating?
And... together cocreating towards what our hearts "know"?

I'm in!






Alchemy of Change

It is so simple.
Love heals. We all know that.
Proven also.

The world (our society) needs to be healed.
So clear.
So, the answer: love.
Love in everything we do..

Do we need to do more research?
For me it's clear and simple..

True to that.
Means: changing things by that.






Folk

Eventhough I have a strong feeling that 'tradition' is old and narrow-minded, that patriotism is a form of deviding (in stead of uniting), I have a strong love for 'folklore'.
A very oppposite thing, right?

I was wondering why.

I love things made by hand. With attention. With care.
I love natural materials.
I love authenticity.
It also has to do with power-to-the -people. The thing 'we can make it our own, and don't need factories', with the insight the way we lived the last centuries lead to nowhere, and that we need to make a change. Ourselves.
It has to do with 'self-responsibility'.
And a love for colours. And 'purity'. And 'simplicity'.

But. A big 'but'.
How more beautiful for me, and better it feels, when those folkloric styles are mixed.
For me a methapor for: let's live together, as one 'tribe'.
Not thighted by old (family) traditions, but grew up by stepping out (able to think by ourselves) and able to live together..
One land (the earth), for which we show care..

Collective Meaning

Interested  in the so called 'collaborative economy'? A nice read is this;  Recreating collective Meaning.



October 17, 2014

One tribe

Community.
Local.
Yes, I think that's a natural and healthy answer.

The small= beautiful movement in combination with the bounding fact of the internet. Local- but in the same time planetary focussed.

Common-based, and open to the world for all kind of co-operation.
Community, but without narrow-thinking.
Sharing with the rest of the world.
Open.
Caring for the whole world.
Why thinking in boundaries, in countries, in tribes, in ethnical backbrounds?
Does our background define us?
This is the very root of rascism.
I am... (this or that), what means you aren't... (this or that)

No. Our background doesn't define us. We are not our tradition. Not in my eyes.
We are far more than that.

Hopefully we go toward one 'tribe'.
Without anything that devide us.

'I'm Dutch'. 'I'm Frisian'. 'I'm Bolivian'. 'I'm Russian. I'm Kurdisch'. 'I'm Eritrean.'
What does it say?

Nothing. Nothing more than a history*.

I'm a Human.
Rooted, like every human, in the earth and the universe.
We are and we share all the same.
What about the thing called love. Makes it any distinction? So, why should we do? 
Doesn't it learn us that it's all 'crapp', human-made crapp? Without any use, only than war?

I'm happy more and more people have this as a way they live. Passport -less, free and without a home-base country.
Why? Because they walk their talk, and they feel human above all. Boundries? Nationalities? They don't excist in their view, so they also don't see them/ want them.
Pavlik Elf for example shows us how to live like that. Working on several common-based projects. In several countries. And he has a 'rich' life, even without money.
He shows us a new way.
We'all could go question our believes.. 'Am I a Dutchman?' ' an Ethiopian'? 'a German'? ' a Bulgarian' ? Because my parents were? Because I'm proud** on my history and roots?
Are those my real roots?
Are those historical roots the real roots of the people around me?

Or are we actually the same?
Nothing more and less than... the same?

Let's cocreate. That means working fromout openess.
Caring for the whole.



*history. History means: not fresh, not new, not alive. Sentiment.

**proud? Please think some deeper...., and do some deep research in the thing called 'racism'.



Pippi #2

In dutch..
So I placed it here.

Dutch

Sometimes I really struggle with my english grammar, and through that having the feeling I cannot really express myself the way I like it.
That's why I made another page here, where I just write in dutch. 



September 20, 2014

Simple is different than easy

While walking in 'the IndianSummer-sun' today, I felt so good and was thinking: "the world/ Life is so great in all its complexity. And both in its simplicity.
And wow, doesn't that actually mean that complexity = simplicity?"

"All its greatness (for example the fact we simply cannot imagine how incredible large the universe is) compared with for example the perfectness of a human cell.
Or the incredible beauty of a little leaf.
The complexity in daily life (how things go) compared with the simplicity of totally loving a cup of tea in the morning sun, or just walking in the sun."

And a quote came up.
"Simple is different than easy",
which I read this week in my facebook- timeline (thanks, Bert van Lamoen, and it shows myself again the good thing (the sharing, the chance to inspire eachother) of social media).

It's not easy to 'just' enjoy the sun (or rain).
Or 'just' a cup of tea.
Or 'just' the wind in your face.
It's not easy to live in the moment.
To see. To hear.
Much easier it's to let yourself go in gossip. In somebody else's point of view. In somebody else's opinion.  In fear. In the world-chaos. In the stream of problems. In statements. In the mess.

Simpleness. Doesn't it  mean ('just') staying in your centre?

Your 'true roots'.
Where it's silent.
Where it's neutral.
Where there is a constance.
Your own 'order' in the chaos.
The simplicity= complexity- state.
The big = the small and honouring that- state.
Your 'real being'.
From where-out you'll transform (your) daily life.

With awe in all the 'just'..., in all the little moments..








September 13, 2014

Openess

Pierre Bonnard - The Open Window
'Positive thinking'.
I don't know exactly why, but I have doubts about this, like I have with for example 'the Secret' and 'the Law of Attraction'.

In my eyes it's far not the whole picture.

There is a layer beneath, I think.

In the core it isn't about 'thoughts' (what's still mind)
So, when people want to create the life they are dreaming of and use the "think positive &  the power of  affirmations- tool", they still give focus to the mind.

For me the 'power' doesn't lay in 1] focus, and not in 2] mind.

The power of the heart is stronger (in my eyes).
That's where your intentions laying.
And those are the ones who direct, even though I don't think I can say it that unsubtle. It's such a very, very subtle (and by nobody to explain--> excuse me 'Law of Attraction'/ 'the Secret' fans and many modern 'spiritual teachers'-followers) interaction!

The Law of Attraction a law of nature?
I doubt (as you see).
For me it's nothing more than an explaination.
But not complete (what's never possible).

Positive thinking.
'You are what you're thinking'.
This is all 'mind', isn't it?
Focusing on positiveness means: focussing.
And what is focussing?
It isn't attention for the whole.

Attention is.

In my eyes it's all about 'being'. Not about 'thinking' and 'focussing'.
Focussing isn't my way.

'Being' is a continue (yes, second by second) research on what's 'right','truth' 'good' and 'meaningful'. And skipping (by seeing trough) the rest, the 'false', the ballast (an integral process; heart, mind, etc, everything included)

Then there is space, and is 'good' (where we all surrounded with) able to shine in!

Putting a lot of effort (what's not really how it goes in nature, does it?) in attracting or 'just' open your windows (by throwing off what isn't truth)?
The first is good to sell, and maybe easier to do, but the second...
...everything and all and neverending!




It's possible, students who 'own' their school and program

August 19, 2014

XTC (the most healthy)


How is this intense silence to come about?



K: Who puts this question? Is the question put by the mind that chatters, the mind that has so much knowledge and it has learned a new thing, which is 'I can see only clearly when I'm quiet, therefore I must be quiet!' Then it says 'How am I to be quiet?'
Surely, such a question is wrong in itself. The moment you ask the 'how' you are looking for a system and therefore destroying the very thing you are enquiring into, which is that the mind can be completely still, not mechanical, not forced, not compelled to be quiet and therefore such a mind, extraordinarily active, sensitive, alert.
So, when you ask the 'how', then there is the division between the observer and the thing observed. So when you see, realize there is no method, no system, no mantras, no teachers, nothing in the world that is going to help you to enquire, but only the seeing of the truth that only the quiet mind can see, then the mind becomes extraordinarily quiet. It's like seeing danger and avoiding it. In the same way seeing that the mind must be completely quiet, it is quiet.
Now the quality of silence matters. You know, a small, little mind can be very quiet, it has a little space in which to be quiet, but that little space with the little quietness is the most ... - you know what it is. But a mind that has limitless space and is therefore quiet and that stillness has no center as the me and the you and therefore the observer and the observed. In that silence there is no observer at all, but only silence. If you have come that far, not through somebody's direction, but that far through self-knowledge, understanding yourself in daily life in your relationships, then you will come to that point, when the mind is completely quiet, not hypnotized. And that quality of quietness has vast space without border and therefore intensely active. The activity of silence is entirely different from the quality of activity which is the self-centered activity. Then, if the mind has gone that far, and really it is not that far, it is always there, if you know how to look, then perhaps that which man has sought throughout the centuries, god, truth, the immeasurable, the nameless, the timeless, then perhaps without your invitation it is there.
Such a man is blessed. There is truth for him and ecstasy.

- Krishnamurti, 4. Public Talk in London, 23rd March 1969

August 11, 2014

Now~lation

A short Modern Love-Story


'Don't be sad, Titia.
There isn't a dream what is over.
Because you don't dream.
You've been there (dreaming, wishing) done that (a lot), but not for longer anymore. 
You don't vizualize a future, do you?
You know Life (as far you can). It is always going different as you think.
You cannot predict It (even when you should have all the superpower, metaypsychical, esoteric and mystical knowledge in the world) because Life has it's own 'intelligence'. 

It's now.
Now.
Now.
Now.

You would love to see something different right now? 

Come on! Could this very moment be more beautiful than it is?

Are you sure? Really, really sure?'

Let me think.. :)
Listening to a romantic song (*snif*) makes me think 'it should be better, much better this 'now''.

But hey! You're dreaming away then!
'That' (your beautiful, 'romantic' vision) isn't the 'now'.
Let's get back to now...

So yep, true.
I cannot be sure.
Now is now.
I see: two people are doing what they are doing.
That's the truth.
They do because..
..they do. 
It couldn't be better than this, now.
Cause it simply IS like this!  

Welcome to the now again, Titia!
Stay there,
there is what everything is.
Where everything lays.
E v e r y t h i n g. 
Even the future! :)


{{{ peace out }}} 


You think I've gone crazy? Hmm, well..,maybe you're right.
But let's not forget: the most intimate relationship we (should) have with..nobody less than ourselves!;)

Deep

Emotions.
What a luck we have them.
Crying.
As good & healthy as laughing.
Just realizing I'm so happy to be human.

Human. Not an angel, alien, a super(wo)man or fairy.
H U M A N.

Why should I behave strong?
Because of others (thinking on Syria for example, or all the others who have it far more difficult) I should deny my own feeling? 
No.
Some things (like feelings) you cannot measure.

You feel it, or not.
It reminds me of the fact that peole who have cancer cannot get fewer.
Like fewer is a good thing for the body (a natural reaction), so emotions are.
That's how I see it..

So, thank you body for let me having them.
I'll cry out, so my pain will naturally go.
I know it will regenerate.
It will be refreshing in the end like nature is after rain.

And it doesn't cost anything!;)
Just some time to go through..,really, really through, and to dive deep.

August 5, 2014

You= Other= World (or?)

How do you treat your body?
With love?
Attention?
Attention for what goes in? 
And what goes mentally in?
Mentally-wise: when you question everything (is it really truth), you'll be at the 'source' as much as possible and your head will stay 'fresh'. What makes you don't have to put effort (waste of energy) in relaxation excersises and so, or to escape in great pleasant things or trips (using things what on the long term doesn't feed your body).
I think this is intelligence.
First doing good for the whole of you.
Just to mind what you're doing moment by moment, being sceptical, and questioning if something is real truth.
And let that in.

Isn't it one: how we treat our body (+mind)--> how we treat others and the world?


co-operation (fun of being & doing together)

It is no co-operation when you and I work together merely because we have mutually agreed to do something. In any such agreement what is important is the doing of that particular thing, not working together. You and I may agree to build a bridge, or construct a road, or plant some trees together, but in that agreement there is always the fear of disagreement, the fear that I may not do my share and let you do the whole thing.
So it is not co-operation when we work together through any form of inducement, or by mere agreement, because behind all such effort there is the implication of gaining or avoiding something.
To me, co-operation is entirely different. Co-operation is the fun of being and doing together - not necessarily doing something in particular. Do you understand? Young children normally have a feeling for being and doing together. Haven't you noticed this? They will co-operate in anything. There is no question of agreement or disagreement, reward or punishment; they just want to help. They co-operate instinctively, for the fun of being and doing together. But grown-up people destroy this natural, spontaneous spirit of co-operation in children by saying, "If you do this I will give you that; if you don't do this I won't let you go to the cinema", which introduces the corruptive element.
So, real co-operation comes, not through merely agreeing to carry out some project together, but with the joy, the feeling of togetherness, if one may use that word; because in that feeling there is not the obstinacy of personal ideation, personal opinion.
When you know such co-operation, you will also know when not to co-operate, which is equally important. Do you understand? It is necessary for all of us to awaken in ourselves this spirit of co-operation, for then it will not be a mere plan or agreement which causes us to work together, but an extraordinary feeling of togetherness, the sense of joy in being and doing together without any thought of reward or punishment. That is very important. But it is equally important to know when not to co-operate; because if we are not wise we may co-operate with the unwise, with ambitious leaders who have grandiose schemes, fantastic ideas, like Hitler and other tyrants down through the ages. So we must know when not to co-operate; and we can know this only when we know the joy of real co-operation.

Jiddu Krishnamurti

August 3, 2014

Value #1

When I was looking in the mirror those last days I was a bit suprised every time. Thinking 'what have I done?!'
(I've cut of my hair a week ago.
Short. Actually quite short short.)


'Why I did it?' I wondered then.
Also because I heard some people think and say: 'a shame..!'
Hmm..,it was part out of frustration.
Of not being seen who I am (I guess we all 'suffer' from this time to time).
Of having an overdosis of all attention on 'beauty en looks' in society.
Of seeing my daughters combing their hair for hours and hours.

The focus is so often laying 'outside'.
Of course I have also people around me who know me.
But still.. Often there is (in my eyes) too much attention for 'looks'.

Two days ago I attended a workshop on authenticity.
Even though I'm 'working on this' in my own way for so long this evening brought me back to my own 'values' some more. And yes,  after looking in the mirror today, I realized that why I did 'it' had everything to do with one of the values I really keep high.
This was it, what made me do it:
the value of 'inner-work' above all.
'Inner' is the only what counts.
That is my life.
I don't wanna play games or being dishonest to myself (why I should have long hair when short is far more practical and feels better? To look more 'femalish'? To please people?)
I'm Me. Femanine and male energy inside me.
Both equally.
'Looks' never had my interest, and will never have.
What interest me is freedom to 'be yourself'.

To be myself.
This freedom.
Value #1!



July 23, 2014

Giving, getting, earning..

What if you've been treaten harsh in a way?
Does he or she doesn't get your respect anymore because you have the feeling he or she doen't earn it?
Closed doors? No chance for a dialogue anymore?

A flower gives.
Without thinking 'this man I 'll give my scent, but this woman not.'
Just because she IS her gift.
Always giving..

Sometimes for me it's hard to see almost everything in our society (also in so called social businesses or great organistions) is based on comparison. 
There has to be something what is well measurable.
You always have to earn something. Whatever. From the attention from your teacher to in some cases attention from your lover.

Being 'generous' (not that I like that word, and actually it's something very 'ungraspy' this thing I mention and hardly to put in words)
Doesn't that mean being as a flower?
Just giving, to whomever?
And not just with an underlaying 'why' (with a reason) but just 'just'?

'Giving' for me seems almost similar as 'living'.
What you 'have' doesn't that want to flow naturally?

In our society this easily makes you a misfit, when you think like this.
Because what you (should) give has match to the needs of others.
Everyone (for example your colleague, or even your lover) seems to live with expectations and is (conscious or unconscious) asking something of you.
You don't fill their hole, their expectations?
Fail! And you immediately feel less respect.

In my eyes we should learn, so show, our children that it's ALL about their being, and that there is nothing they need to DO in order to be good.
What if they do 'no good'/ harm others, etc. ? Even then there should be a dialogue in my eyes.

Really being seen and heard (always, wherever, whatever). Shouldn't that avoid a lot of trauma in society?
Maybe a key for a more peaceful world? What if we throw away the pedagogy books and keep it simple like this?;)
Seeing eachother. Always. And giving 'full respect*' to Being instead of doing..


*Full respect: an ungoing (life-long) learning, moment by moment. I think nobody can say: 'Í'm there!





July 19, 2014

High

I go for the natural.., the spiritual..



July 8, 2014

Dreams #3

'Follow your dreams!' 'Have the persistence to reach your goals!'
Why I still get kind of tired of those words? Words it seems I hear and see everywhere this time?

In trying to reach something, something 'further away', do you live fully in the moment?
Are you happy and grateful where you are now?
Dreams.. Something beautiful in the future? Greatness to achieve?
Again I say it here: for me 'dreams' are inside me.
It's the lifeliness what makes me me.
Like the blood running through my veins.
For me 'dreams come true' means able to fully be myself.
Egocentric? I doubt.
It's being free. In peace.
What if we all were?
Wouldn't  that make the beautiful world our hearts know it's possible?
Has 'following dreams' not everything to do with being? Yourself, in close contact with 'the universe' (or what name we want to give with 'that' what's 'Everything')?

For me no utopia, no future to reach.
Just work to do. Here. Now.

Moment by moment.
Alive..

And in the meantime, who knows, building on this 'utopia'.
But.
A big 'but'.
Without the pain of having 'hardship' of  'crucifieng' and the hope that later when 'dreams are being fulfilled' feeling better.
Like running.
I prefere for example (barefoot-)running in nature rather than the sport-world with its competitions.
Enjoying the process rather than on to reaching something.
Whatever that 'something' may be...
Is it cool to 'give up' in order to 'get'?
We already learn it at school on a early age: you've got to work hard in order to achieve. You have to do to get better.
Me, my mind doesn't work like this.
'Having', being whole already, and being grateful for that, is the startingpoint. Achievements/ results are naturally coming out from that.
Without 'fighting', without hardship.
Playful. With joy.
Competition (wanting to achieve becoming number one, the best) footbal versus the joy of just playing on a summer-evening with your friends..

So, again, in short: for me 'following dreams' and 'achieving goals' means nothing more or less than: Being Yourself. Your true self. With the action fromout that.

Effort and flow are two totally different things.
They don't go together.
For me, living has more to do with the latter.
Effort means reaching, means striving.
Flow means being, mindful, in the moment, grateful.
Action fromout that, than I 'live my dream'. 







June 15, 2014

My dream..

...is a big one.
It starts here, and is open ended:
that I (yes, 'I', and that may look very egocentric) may be as healthy as possible. Clear in my mind, my heart as centre to act from, and my hands busy (so to say).
Yes, my dream is moment by moment a healthy me. I understand a healthy me is the biggest I can give in our co-creating process towards a healthier world. No doubt 'creating a healthy world' is absolutely not in hands of the so called leaders, but in the hands of all of us, and so I'm aware I have the most responsible job on earth*.
My dream is to be as healthy as possible, to 'do' this job as good as possible.
My own health (moment by moment) on nr. one makes the dream a narrative, a big open space...Life in all it's greatness, in togetherness with so many collegues**

Where my dream ends? 
Has it an end?
....... 
Life.....


* + ** we're all collegues, as we all have this same job!


June 10, 2014

Tired

This weekend I somehow saw (more than I normally do) what judgment is.
Even more than on other days I felt what others were saying..
If you notice, people are judging the whole day through.
In the way 'I know it better than you' but also in the way of making compliments, putting a sticker 'nice' or 'good' on someone or something. This is in my eyes a subtle way of judging too.
It's 'knowing' something of the other. But hey, are we sure we know that much?
Really? Are you really sure?
More than ever, it makes me tired.
Personal beliefs, personal flavors mingled with emotions, it also builds walls.
It stands in the way of just talking from the heart. Of talking about what matters.
This is so, that is so...
Making statements, how small they may be.
Is it? Is it true what you're saying? Please, get to the point..
We're all..more than ANY sticker, even the so called 'positive' ones.

Just have to say...
tired from it.
Very, very tired.

Maybe I had an overdosis of it, this weekend.., being away from my 'own habitat'.
Talking and listening to much about others.. it is something I have strong difficulties with..
I like to have a lot of silence in my life, and during the day.
Space.
The space where Rumi talks about, I guess.
We can meet eachother there, in the non judgmental space..
Me myself I really think it's the only place to really meet, and go further from, build any relationship from, and do any action together from.
It's where intelligence lives..
Outside the space, how subtle a positive judgement can be (and also how good and flattering it feels often) I feel a stupidness..
Not the space I choose to be..
And I guess after this weekend I'll avoid it more and more....



June 3, 2014

Sustaining or thriving?

We want to create a better world, right?
We hear it all around.
Yes, that's why we talk so much about sustainability.
But, I wonder, by talking so, do we also really look deep inside?
How do we live?
Fromout our thoughts (old.., always behind 'what is'), or fromout another place? Heart, silence?
A place from where emerges?
We can change things, the way we did, but slightly a bit different. Less worse.
What we call sustainability.
Or radical different.
With a total different startingpoint.
The heart, openess.
That's what's called 'thrivability'.
Something new.

I go for the latter.
That's why I thrive at Knowmads, and other (rare) spaces, where there is space. Lot of space. For doing totally different.
Where it's all about floroushing (yourself) and thriving.
Not about staying sustain, but...more! 
Do you want a sustainable relationship with your lover? 
Or...more?
I guess more.
So we also can do more in any other 'field'. Personal, business, etc..
Radical different. Fromout that space called 'freedom'. We don't have to search for that, it's just here..(you'll see it if you don't let your head and fear overrule).
Let's use it and (co~)create!


June 2, 2014

Past

If we're all not in our 'real power' yet, it doesn't make sense to take everything too serious.
We don't have to take it too serious when other people hurt us. It's not needed to carry it our whole life through.
How good it feels when you really see it: past (really, every past, even the past minute) is just past.
Past is old.
Made by us all being not in our 'full power'. So not worthy to be build on.
If you don't give it attention, you can give all to the moment, to freshnesh, Lemlem..:)
This is what regenerates and heals!
This is what gives air and space for 'real' growth!
How green do we want to see the world? I think it starts here!